One year ago today, my beautiful mother left this world. As I reflect on this past year, I’m amazed at my journey of healing and growth. Today feels different – it’s time to focus on the beautiful memories and let go of the painful last month of her life.
This morning, I put on Mom’s brown sweater – the one she wore almost every day for years. I used to tease her about this “ugly sweater” and tell her to get rid of it. But Mom was loyal to what she loved, and now I’m so grateful she kept it. Wearing it today feels like receiving a hug directly from her.
Recently in meditation and dreams, Mom has been visiting me. This week she came to me in the most vivid meditation-surrounded by all her beloved cats in a peaceful forest. Pudgy, our old dog was there too. Teddy, my childhood cat, ran to comfort me. Suki and Cricket created what seemed like a black cat portal for her to visit.
She looked absolutely beautiful in her pink lace dress, serving tea and those tomato sandwiches with Miracle Whip that she always made. She had special gifts for each of my siblings – violets and acorns for Joby, a gold bread tie and sugar cookie for Andy, and a bottle cap and cupcake for Craig. For me she gave me a childhood princess tiara and told me to sing, play, dance & enjoy life with her blessings. She assured me she checks in on all of us, including her grandchildren, and sends her endless love.
Her message was clear: remember the good times and beautiful memories. It’s time to let go of the sadness, accept what cannot be changed, and know that everything is okay.
So today, I’m focusing on those precious memories – Mom in her pink lace dress, our times together at lakes and oceans, in gardens and on farms, and all the family moments we shared. The love – there was so much love.
Happy Angel Day, Ma. I love you forever. 