It’s been hard. My Mom passed away on Good Friday this year. I’d like to say everything is fine now but healing takes time and grief has its own frequency. My mom went from being fine on her birthday on March 3rd, to sick, to in the hospital, to ICU, to hospice in less then 30 days. I knew my role was to help her transition from the moment I drove the 2 hours down to see her in hospital because I had a car full of spirits and ancestors sitting with me. Every song on the radio was them communicating with me. Still, I didn’t really want to admit it was the end. I held on to that childlike innocent faith until the very end.

My mom has come to visit me often in spirit and dream and via messenger (butterfly, cardinal, etc) but I still get waves of grief that send me into tears.

Today I was driving and spaced out taling a familiar road but not the one I had planned on. Driving down the cried all of a sudden I realized I was in the wrong place & heading a different direction. But, at this point in my life, I shrug and figure there is a .message somewhere for me so I started to look for it.

I saw an old tree stump. I had never noticed before even though I am on that road almost every day. From this old tree stump was three trees who grew out of it. Quite tall, strong and beautiful trees all sharing the same tree stump as home base. One ending began three beginnings.

I could feel my Mom sitting with me- she loved nature: trees, birds, flowers- I could feel her showing me this beautiful tree and smiling as I got the message bit by bit.

it’s okay to feel sad. It’s okay to greive. But it wasn’t an end for her- it was just a different beginning. We feel the emptiness of those we have lost because they aren’t in the same place anymore. But it doesn’t mean it is the end.

I have been a medium my whole life

I know this- that energy does not die- it just moves. When I held my cat Bella as she passed away I could feel when her soul left her body. I knew it. I have dome countless mediumship resdings whete loved ones step in to say ” I am still here. I love you. ” I wven have science to back me up – There was a study done by a scientist named Dr. MacDougall called that studied and concluded thecweight of the soul was about 7oz.

If you want to google it it is called ” Hypothesis Concerning Soul Substance Together with Experimental Evidence of The Existence of Such Substance.”

BUT that didn’t and doesn’t make my grief any easier. Grief is personal. It’s about memories and love and it doesn’t fit into boxes that make sense.

My Mom has come through a few times for me and for my medium friends – which is so healing because my Mother did NOT like what I do: she made that clear to me often. I guess I can say she finally gets it and appreciates my gifts – on some level – finally! The great part about when she has come through it has been to tell me she is feeling better. My mom suffered from chronic pain + rheumatoid arthritis. Now she tells me she is dancing. That was akways her dream. My sister told me when Mom was enrolling in school or talking to human services after the fact about her career plans. She was upset/sad that when they asked what she wanted TO BE if she could be anything she wanted she replied: a dancer. They made her feel small and ridiculous for being so impractical, Well, after our psychic encounter, Mom is clearly a dancer now. That must make her happy. To have a body and spirit that can move freely and gracefully with total joy and ease. She can be who she always dreamed to be.

And, she told me she wants me to dance too.

Because I am unhappy in many ways: in body and job and money and relationship and oh- so- serious and adult-y (for lack of a better word).

So I was thinking…. how one ending can be new beginnings we don’t even see or know or understand. My mom might have passed away from this world but beyond the veil she is healthy and dancing and happy.

and, it makes me think of the trinity :

of my path and my faith and my gifts all connected for me to GOD.

AND it made me think about ways I can ‘ dance’ more in this life… seek joy…. laugh…. play… giggle… have fun….

I call that energy in.

thank you. Thank You. THANK YOU. ❤️

So be it.