Getting to a state of calm

This year has been crazy for me. Deep healing and learning hpw to be in alignment and co creation with body. Ahhh. Attracting positive when you just want to shut down and run away?! 😞

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Sometimes healing can look like illnesses…. Have you ever heard of a healing crisis?

A healing crisis is an event that seems like an illness by all outward appearances. But is something triggered by an act of health? An act of health is any action that you take, which is naturally a nutritionally sound. Some examples of health that might trigger a healing crisis or something like fasting. Eating only fresh Whole Foods. Getting caffeine or coffee out of your diet? Cutting cigarettes detoxing from marijuana or chemically treated foods for a few days. Parasite cleanse detox cleanse meeting and exceptionally high spiritual person like A. Monk or a coach feeling someone’s unconditional love or getting a massage. Making and a piece of art that was really poignant for you. Going to a beautiful natural space in the in the nature. And spending some time there getting some space and time alone. When you haven’t had any in a long time. What you must understand is that no matter how uncomfortable a healing crisis is the disease that would occur if you do not allow the healing to take place is twice as distressing. If you sense your body to have stored toxins from past abuses, go easy on yourself. Take steps slowly and gently to improve your health. Begin listening and paying attention to what you’re about.

Facebook has decided to post non stop ads on my page about weight loss and peri-menipause…. so I guess the algorithm has duagnosed me. Fuck that-when there is SO much more to move through. as if it was only that. that ONE. thing. what a wild and wonky ride but its more😵‍💫. My mentor once said menopause is when women becpme holders of the grail. But the world wants us to feel suck useless and other. My moods are all over the place. JUST when I think I have some semblance of ease, oh, now here’s some adolescent rage, with a side of intense power cleaning. and then I want to collapse on the floor and ugly cry…. for no specific reason. and just ICK- every one & every thing. and, yet…. we are in the highest evolutionary leap of humanity between 2912 and 2032. We are in the THICK of it. Old crumbles and New Creates chaos as it heals. I have some really strong opinions, that my soul is just DYING to share, and yet when I look in the mirror and wonderwho the fuck AM i ? 🧐 or Rather….who Am I becoming?

When things are going well it’s easy to be in high vibe and send out the right frequencies to attract dreams.

BUT when you are battling with guilt? Regret, or shame?
When the fear of failure is burying us deep into the muddy ground?

These times are so intense, politics, wars, chaos… then we look at astrology and solar flares and Schuman resonance …. we all want to just hide, run or scream – showing up with a fake smile is 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑛𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑜𝑢𝑠 𝑠𝑦𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑚 is thinking about…

Shifting your frequency into Lala land is just not possible then. My illness this winter was a big awakening. I realized that my immune system shot because my nwervous system was so stressed out -between house fires and being homeless in 2021 and the stress of my Mom passing in 2024- and just a stressful job in the bank, and life of Mom and adulting – my body was in a chaos state of fight or flight all the time. I was not able to bounce back from a simple illness. When I got sick I went down hard. So, I started doing a lot of research on the vagus nerve.

We cant really do the work we are here to do if we are in constant state of fight or flight. Emotional dysregulation isnt peri-menopause but its magnifying our natural state of chaos – if we cant see it ourselves. Somatic Alignment is what’s been the game changer. One of the last things we think of doing in our emotional state is 𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒐𝒘𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒗𝒆𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒄𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘𝒍𝒆𝒅𝒈𝒆, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑭𝑬𝑬𝑳. Yet, our feelings just want to be heard and seen, they are not there to make us miserable. My mentor told me in a coaching session to Thank my feelings for being there, and 𝑎𝑠𝑘 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 need. What we do tend to do is 𝚓𝚞𝚍𝚐𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 self ̶j̶u̶d̶g̶e̶m̶e̶n̶t̶. A LOT of it. So instead I started saying to my anger- what boundary was crossed? What is my body trying to tell me? Illness too! I highly suggest that you check out Louise Hays- you can Heal your life. She is always spot on in her illness diagnosis / root emotional cause and her affirmations are so helpful. .. But compounding emotions, like feeling guilty for something, then shaming ourselves for feeling guilty just makes illness worse. If Nobody else is judging us, why do we?

When you feel chaos. #1 MOVE your body. Literally get I to a different shape wiggle. Swing. Jump. Stomp. And…#2 BREATHE! #3 𝐀𝐬𝐤 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐐𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: 𝙄𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 feeling 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙚? ❤️
(this thought pattern, this complaining, this judgement, this self-sabotage)

Then,

𝗖𝗛𝗢𝗢𝗦𝗘- ask yourself what what is it you need – how do you WANT to feel, and take any tiny action as a first step that brings you that feeling.

Then – Shifting our state into Alignment is the key to shifting out of fight, flight, chaos and into rest & digest. The Vagus nerve is an ancient part of us that always us to rest, relax and digest our food. Or move into fight or flight, if we are not calm if effects our entire body and the longer we are in a state of stress the harder it is to come back to it. Which is why – an act of healing can trigger a healing crisis. Or why when we finally have vacation we get sick- our body needs to rest and heal and often the ONLY time we listen is if we are sick.

𝐢𝐠𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 be a 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐥𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐭 – regardless of what life throws at you.

🌀 Love & Magic is here for us … and rest really is the KEY

Google vagus nerve and somatic exercises….

here are some notes from my study….

rest & digest anxiety difficult sleepv agus means wanderingchecks to make sure major organs okaystimulate vagus nerve connected to brain & heartomega 3 exercise massagereflexology little indent clavicle put finger in it and hold massage lightly 1 min alternate hold & massagealternate nostril breathing right side throat massage lightlyincrease gut health probiotic fasting sauna/ hot steam follow with cold showerice pack 5 min throat on each sidehot shower end cold one minutemassage side of throat Electric impulse throat humming laughter- belly laughing singinggentle rub on eyes massagelook left 5 sec, look right 5 seceye yogagargling with noise/ soundBREATHING exhale longer then Inhalemassage nerve inside ear little part sticks outhard occipital bone press and hold 30 sec. to right of it 30 sec. other side center and left.massage lower head base top neckcheck rangemotion head to left, right, hands behind head lay down look left look right 30 sec each .. wait for yawn or sigh. sit up check range motionrounds of 3: hands in prayer position long Inhale nose. exhale all air. hold breath while hold breath push hands together until shake: release trauma fear. repeat two times. Pause. repeate 2x for a set of three breathsroll blanket up. lay on it underneath hips and just lay face down arms out/under head to hip release and rest vagusmassage earslay on yoga mathands under head (like pillow)knees up feet on ground back flatmove eyes right hold 30secmoves eyes left hold 30 seceye to ceiling eye down breathing pausing relaxing sit or stand right hand tto top head over to eat then gently pull head down to shoulder eyes same direction come back straight spine& same move other sidebelly buttonsit at chair straight spine feet flat floortap lower belly – open up tap 30xright hand belly left hand diaphragm tap 50×*might feel pain SP relax exhale*massage abdomen gentle belly rubtwist waiste spine back forth 30x warm up tp active vagus nerve hands over bellydominant hand under stick thumb in belly button relax gut pump feel ripplexwave motion up all nerve30× other side! 30×both thumbs in 30×two finger peace sign together both hands in belly push 30×(hot sweaty, saliva, warm hands means vagus nerve is in activation)rest hands on knees feel bodysalivayawnsbreathewarmtinglyrelaxedcalmcentereddeep Inhaledeep exhalesigh with soundkeep doing itwith practice gut will get deeper to help digestion and rest response!